Friday, December 5, 2014

3rd Year (Final Year?) in a month!

Alhamdulillah, managed to come home. After 22 months (how I love #2!) being abroad, I don' t think I could go further coz life was just so stressful over there. I started hating people (best thing that I do in life), losing momentum in working, enjoy shopping excessively and literally I was out of mood all the time. November 6th 2014 has been the day that kept me waiting for so long. Booked my ticket somewhere in the mid year so it was a long hold up. And travelling home on a 14 hours flight with 3 transit was definitely fun. Didn't expect I was about to meet someone from uni. Sheila. Nice gal. travelled together from NCL-KUL. Something that I wouldn't do tbh coz most of the time I prefer to have my privacy but she was friendly and I didn't mind. Dubai was not that boring this time coz I opted to have food rather than just dozing off on the back-aching metal benches. Mushroom Swiss has always been my Burger King favourites. Recalled my school days that I have to save not eating at school and go for big lunch before tuition at Mr Raj. All tiring and fun days I guess. So yeah, I'm home. Been spending a lot of time down south in JB. mostly in akak's house in Batu Pahat. My research visit in NTU had been progressive but I could do more honestly. Well when your at home, you hardly do any work isn't it. Bet my lil effort here would pays a bit for next year work. And talking about 3rd year, GOD! That's so creeping me out. How will I complete my core work in a year??? Aihhhhh..something that I wish not to think during this holidays but still praying that I will be fine. Ameeen. At the moment, leaving me less than a month before flying again is definitely devastating. I want more time just holidaying rather than spending 5 weeks working and only 2 weeks off. Feeling homesick already, even when I'm at home ;( Hate this feeling..

Thursday, April 10, 2014

2nd Year

pejam celik..pejam celik..dah 2nd year..O M G..

i hade fun in my 1st year. definitely..spending time with new friends, B dtg UK..Cheroz..and having Ainnura, Hafez, Baiz..everyone makes me feel homey again. Alhamdulillah..rezeki ade teman2 semua..bile pikir balik..i did worked my as* off in my 1st year. mungkin sbb kwn dgn kakak2 senior jd terikot sekali style dyorg..dtg weekend buat keje..balik mlm2..takper la..its good i won't be too surprised with such routine later on..which sooo common for research students. i started in Jan 2013. was supposed to submit my proposal in 3 months tp delayed a month coz my sv still needed to discuss a couple of things before i submit. and the work literally started after i submitted. the feeling of a fultime researcher amazes me. even when writing this. well, i'm writing this in school now..for the first time ever..takperlah..after work hours..i like the idea that one needs to dig, dig and dig on something that he has been curious about. basically its everything for me that relates to soils, slope and UNSATURATED. yeah, that last word couldn't really stop me from reading anything on it lately. deeply in i put it at the moment..may Allah grant my love and passion towards ilmu without a limit. ameeen ;) so i practically enjoyed my rest of the months playing with Plaxis, getting help from all over until the end of the year reaches. Christmas. Boxing day!!! omaigod..its rewarding after all those can never treat me of the best part in the 1st year was Raya as nt la cte..

so kene sambung buat keje merepek kerepek..kerepek ubi dh abesss!!! ;( need to get restock dr sape2 nk balik msia..hur3 ;)

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Going Out Fishing

im so glad how i have destined to meet Asari, a cool Bruneian who studies in the same office as i am and a group of kakak senior; Kak Yaya, Kak Ida and Kak Niza. They're sporting and enjoy my jokes. Well, thats pretty lame how you liked to be accepted but still, its a fact. Spent time with them for a couples of gatherings already. And today was totally a funny one for us. We went out to South Shields which is quite far from the city center but with train, everything seemed so easy and fast. We were supposed to get on board by different stations and meet up in one coach but you know how fast the train is and we missed out on the plan and boarded in 2 groups but managed to reach South Shields safe and sound. Kak Ida renewed her visa and we head straight to the Colmans, seafood restaurant. The food was good and likewise, good restaurants always serves in big servings. Asari and I ordered like extra fish menus for us each that we ended to stuffed badly. Well, in a good way, Alhamdulillah. her3.. There were a few grand-unties over the next table who were sooo amazed with our appetite. Looking at how small we were but having such big meals. har3.. Malaysians, always amaze people with their appetite and local dishes. So i told them that the last time i came to South Shields was with Richard; my housemate and his best friend; Eff. We took a ferry ride which was free using the Daily Saver Metro ticket. It was just for a short trip but it was fun and they decided to get on board as well this time. I don't mind taking them to the jetty coz i know how close it is form the city but after that, i was not sure how to get to the metro station. On the other side of course coz the last time i came, we went the other way around.

 My first time going out to the beach with Richard and Eff from Whitley Bay-South Shields

BBQ with them girls..wajib ade sunglasses :D

Kak Nor with his eldest son..ade sorg lg..cute2 belaka..

Colmansss :)

Thats what i had..hur3

After a pleasant ride on the ferry, we stepped onto the land and start walking..the road was leading to left-right direction but i think there was a straight ahead road too but its didn't look that promising. So we took the right one and kept walking until we realized it was quite far already and we hardly see any sign leading to the station. i started feeling worried but kept my coolness by making jokes throughout the way and yeah, i managed to cheered time somehow. har3..what i love most right, entertain. So i decided to ask for direction from an old couple. the guy was trying to avoid at first but when they heard that all i wanted to ask was how to get to the station, they turned out to be so helpful especially the lady. She crossed the road just to show me where i should take the lead to. They started laughing and claimed that they already knew the way coz they looked up in the map by the road. Danggg..har3..

Terpaksa katenye :D panjat la bukit..hek3

  Tipah tertipu, tipu tertipah :D

We finally made it to the city which obviously the station will be around it and it was lovely i can tell. Saturday, and they had this Food Festival but we were so fulled so we just passed and headed to the Tynemouth Station. It was way lovelier coz i really adore classic and artistic goods as the Tynemouth Station actually has a Saturday market by the station. i bought a boz of cupcakes well becoz i was craving for them lately and to make them feel a lil ease after the long walk. Which i was to be blamed..har3..And we all had a good home-made ice cream which won something about the England best food..but the guy simply didn't understand that i wished for a smaller cone..not really becoz i was saving but becoz i was literally fulled..har3..we waited for the train. Boarded and still i made my jokes coz i enjoy loking at them enjoying my pathetic jokes..theres no other better way to make people happy than to make yourself happy first right. Laughter is the best medicine. So i bet they were fine but they will bring it up just to make fun of me soon..which i don't mind..her3..we parted different ways later but trully, i enjoyed my Saturday day out with them. Worth for my seafood craving ;)

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

£ 3.70: Busted!

So my curiosity towards the lady who asked me for the 3.70 was stiffened out by stories from my new Malaysian friends that i know now. They call her the makcik 50P coz thats what she is famous for among them. And how funny, one late afternoon when i was heading back home from school, i passed through the Robinson Library and i met her again. She was quite a daring lady to ask for money again from me. Maybe she didnt remember but i do think she did. It was a try-out for her coz i had given her a lot before, perhaps ill be fooled again she thought. I saw her and nothing that i could think of except for, "owh God, this fil*hy bit*h!!!"..mind my language but i was that pissed off. She came nearer and said "excuse me?" i gave a stare and replied with a "huhhh?" with my mouth close. And she asked, "do you have 80 pence?" I gave a prompt reply, "NO!" and she walked off and so did i..har3..i felt relieved, heart pounding..funny..i was not that naive boy no more..will change that from now on. i thought maybe i should have asked her back to return my £3.70 or even better just give a good kick or smack to the face. tp biar la..tak gune wat jahat kat org..bia org wat kat yeah, she a big ass liar who asks, not beg..just ask money and how she manage to manipulate people..'CONFIDENCE'. damn i hate being thats the story..thinking of maybe to report this to the Unis Security coz she was lingering in the uni area..not a good thing..especially to internationals..might be a good move. till then ;)

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Kene Pau £ 3.70

Hurm..naseb badan, kalau kat negara sendiri pon dah kene bape kali, apatah lagi kat kegara orang..mmg muke senang kene tipu.. sedih..

Wednesday 3rd Apr 13. Hari yg berkobar2 utk balik awal sbb nk beli seluar tdo..setiap ari dok pk nak pakai ape utk tdo, so ingt arini nk g beli la seluar pendek wat tdo..4.20pm dh kemas la yg selalu balik2 awal niyh..antak dtg balik awal takder yg peliknye..Start dgn Primark, dpt la seluar satu.baju satu..warmer satu..nak seluar g Wilko..beli tisu..G Tesco..beli brg yg ade off jer..yg ade bar tag kuning je..klw takder off, kaler putih. Well, what i love to do is collecting groceries. Beli yg sale.lame2 byk la, senang nak masak. Pastu g poundland. Semua brg 1pound. Cam kedai 2inggit kat Malaysia. Pastu balik..dgn brg2 byk..jln merentasi bese..Sempat jmp tablemate Dapo..and said hi. Dah nak smpi umah dah, kat Metro Jesmond, ade local lady ran towards me and said i need ur help. Malas dh nk dgr sbnrnye, tp dgr jdk. Direct je dy ckp, i need 1.80 for the train. Aq sengih jap. terus bg. Bg £2 terus. Pastu dy ckp, i need 3.80 for my friend too..Haram, mase tuyh dh pk kene nk lari camner.. Aq dgn muke naif, baik abes tanye dy, are you blf..chea..lying to me? Dy ckp, no! im going to take the train i swear. Aq sengih2 lagi dgn sejuk2 tuyh, dy boleh ckp, i can see that your loaded buying all these stuff. Aq boleh wat dunno..sbb dlm otak mmg pk serabot nk lari dr dy aje..So bg jgk..tgh bagi2 baru £3.70 dy dh lari pastu ckp thank you. Lege, jalan balik dlm 200m ke umah.

Balik call Ainnura, ngadu kene tipu. i even whatsapped my family saying the same thing. Tp ttw la..mgkn betul, dy nak dari 1.80 naek ke 3.80..dh mcm tipu..Hurm..tuyh la org ckp, org sini lg kuat tipu helahnye..Sabar je lah..takder la rase rugi sbb mgkn dpt tlg org tp klw kene tipu rase bengang. Bengang dgn diri sdr sbb terlalu naif dan baik. I had the same for a couple of times back in Malaysia because of the same thing. I was so nice. Ye, skg aq tgh mule saving sbb nak ade duit extra..mane taw emergency kene balik Malaysia mmg jage2 la duit..dan mmg ye £3.70 takkan mempengaruhi dari saving utk tiket emergency tuyh tp perasaan mcm kene tipu niyh yg wat sakit..Katelah dy tipu, baik lg org2 yg dok mintak sedekah kat kaki lima tuyh wpon dy tak atau malas keje, dy tak menipu. Sebab aritu ade sekali, kdg2 tgk yg mude2 mintak sedekah niyh rase mls nk layan. When u can tell, that they can work. So lalu la dpn dy, i heard he said sumthing like, mate..bla bla bla mintak sedekah kot. Then i just passed through and tried to smile a bit but not looking. So i heard he was making a clear call, excuse me..excuse jln je jgk..dh jauh sket aq dgr dy ckp, bastard..Har3..panas ati sepjg mlm rase. Org dh tanak bagi, takyah la mara. Tapi klw ppoan td tuy tipu, dibanding dgn yg maki aq tuyh, baik aq bg kat yg maki tuyh sbb dy tak tipu. Hurm..cabaran, dugaan dan pengalaman hidup. Serba serbi sampingan yg aq nk belajar kat tpt org.

Kalaw pikirkan, kte nak semua org baik. So kurang, gado, kurang perang, kurang masalah. Tapi tak semua org mcm kte. Tak semua org baik mcm kte. Tak semua org boleh jd baik mcm kte. Kte pon, bile marah, pandai plak ckp, baik2 pon, guraw2 pon ade hadnye..So nt kte marah jgk, gado jgk..termaki ke..terpukul ke..So lumrah manusia. People change. Bg aq, ape yg aq boleh buat, aq cube jelah jd baik..sebaik2nye..tak dimata org, dimata Pencipta aq..yg plg penting, di mata aq sendiri..Sbb to start something good, something good that you want people to do, it all starts with you. Because to develop the people, the community, the nation, the mindset is what most important that needs to be educated with. Kalaw tak, manakan bisa mengerti apa yg perlu, apa yg mesti dan apa yg wajib. I can tell that most the people here are very well-civilized in terms of manner and ethics. Tp bab2 tipu menipu niyh, agama dyorg penekanan laen. Kte pon ade penekanan tp penghayatan takder so same je jgk. So to the local brit lady, if u really needed the money, aq halalkan..but if u do not, then its not my problem anymore. its between you and God. And trust me, theres only one God and His Messenger. Tbe2 lepas tulis niyh lege rase, td rase marah membuak2 rase kene tipu. Semoga lepas niyh takder kene camni lg, ameeen..i really dun mind helping people. At all. As long as i can give u what u may need, i will be there to help u out. After all, harta niyh semua milik Allah..Insya Allah..

*rajin plak tulis blog skg..sbb nk mengadu semua tdo :D 

Monday, April 1, 2013

1st Breakdown

And so it happened on Sofea's Birthday, my lil cute niece who is growing up so fast. Dah darjah 2 rupanye. Cik Jat silap..

So i slept the other night normally, after i finished writing my Methodology. The next morning, i woke around 7. Promtly performed my Subuh (a bit late thou) and felt a thunderous headache. i thought it was just a mild one and took 2 tablets of Panadol and slept again. i was awake by a massive and way extreme headache at 8. Literally, i wanted to cry, yeahhh cry baby! But hell it was painfull. So try to calm myself, and thought that it will go away. And no it didnt. So i went through my drawer to look for my NHS (medical) card and bummer, i couldnt find it. i had to check all 6 drawers i have to find that tiny piece of paper. Found it after i put myself together. Realized the reason i couldnt find it at first because i was indeed totally dizzy. I cant open my eyes. Had to put the lights off. Which i never done even when i go to sleep. Called my clinic and guess what? They were closed due to Easter. Dang!!! So i continued listening to the phone and they gave a number for NHS direct which an operator qualified with medical experience to  help you through the line.

A first attempt, a voice of a macho guy, funny coz most of the time it will be a lady to do this sort of thing. Har3..dang, I was in pain and still being judgemental. So yeah, continued, he asked indetail of my postcode, first name, sure name, full address and what was bothering me. I told about my headache and he passed the line to a medical nurse. She was nice and i can understand her accent easily. She said that i was just having a stressful moment that i need to rest a lot and theres no need to go to the emergency although i really thought i have to. It was killing me at the moment. Pounds and pounds of thunderous headache. And the line was cut off coz my battery died.

I waited for them calls but perhaps my battery was to low to take any calls. So i rang them again and i had to start all over again with the clarification of my details. The same macho guy picked up and made his own verdict that i might have to go for a 999 realizing how sever my condition was. I do want to get that kind of help but i thought that maybe i am not that sever even though i can tell my head was about to explode. So the guy passed the line to another nurse and this time i recalled her name; Clara. She was helpful but when theres an instuction that she needed me to do but i just cant get he deep accent. And she decided to get an interpreter; a Malay interpreter. How funny that they actually got one and the interpreter used a very formal language. Like "encik rase ade tekanan ya?" when i told her my answers in Malay, she had to translate them to the nurse. Har3..kelakar. And i understand everything basically. Until we reach to the point that the nurse actually wanted me to lower my chin to reach my neck. Laa, itu ke yg aq tak paham td. The lady translator was very helpful. I never knew they have such service. Wel the major reason was to the the info right and so they can diagnose my problem properly. How lovely. And there it goes again, the line was cutt coz i ran out of credit. So i waited and Clara called me back. Theyre very responsible, i can tell. So she just told me that i need to relax for the next 48hours, drink a lot of water, no chocolate, caffein, alcohol (duhhh), and put a cold cloths on my forehead and my neck. If i were to not getting better, she required me to get in touch with them again. So i thanked her and head back to rest.

Alhamdulillah, after resting for like the whole day, starting from last night 12.30am till 3.30pm, now i fel a little bit light but the dizziness is still there, as im writing this post. i really dont understand whatve gotten into me. i mean, i slept at normal hours last night and i didnt really put a lot of effort working since it was Sunday. But i realized this, i was so stressed out last Thursday that i went to the city and got all the chocolate my shopping bag can fit with and i think i had a little extra with the salt for dinner, the night before and obviously, its been a stressful week. God, it was painful. I plan to see my GP tomorrow and see what really happen to my body. Maybe a slight higher with my the blood pressure. Dugaan, abes satu hari tak belajar..and perhaps esok pon half day. Tapi kalau Allah dah nak bagi sakit, tak boleh ckp ape. Ade hikmahnye. im frustrated, really because i planned to read a lot today. But now staring at the screen pon rase silau, sakit mata. Maybe i just really3 rest well and work harder the rest of the days. It was very tense for the today. Especially when i realized that i had no one to go for when im sick. Kalau kat umah mesti dah cari Ibu. Or Ayah. They will at least give a rub on my head to soothe it down. I miss my family. Contacted everybody and all texts came back saying theres nothing more that i needed of than my rest. Jadi, rehatlah saya ;|    

My homemade sushi due to Jap cravings that i had lately. The dark ones were the spicy chillied clamps. Made this on Saturday but dont think it was one of the reason why i have my headache. 

This however, the sweet little things that drive me crazy :D

I have to care for myself more i guess after this wake-up call. Miss home :[

Tuesday, March 26, 2013


Talking about living abroad is basically towards the excitement of experiencing the winter. To be more specific, SNOW! kapas2 putih ais..jatuh2 melekat kat badan..2-3 saat ilang jadi air, cute ;)

The first few days, in fact weeks, when i arrived in Newcastle, United Kingdom. I always keep the friendliness of introducing myself especially in the Post Graduate Research office. Kalaw yg nmpk tak bz sgt tuyh, boleyh g terus kacaw..kalaw yg mcm garang, moody, tension2 muke cam nk mkn org hentak2 keyboard baling2 kusi type laju2..tuyh tgu 2-3 mgu baru tego..har3.. But after all, they are all so nice so far. Yg putih, gelap, besar, kecik, tua, muda, berjanggut, botak, pakai tank top je..pakai baju ketat2 tunjuk muscle..semua ade dlm ofis tuyh..and one thing about them, they do work all the time..and ckp sikit2 je..buat aq pressure :D And they were surpised when i said i like the weather because they just cant wait to get the season over. "Its a new thing to me, to experience the snow." And they laughed. :D So i wanna talk about snow actually, the people here, next or next next post :D

As i stepped out of the plane, Emirates to be exact. Was so lucky to be in one.. The weather so bright and i can tell that it was quite breezy even thou i was still in the airport. It was a mild-chilly i could say..Dlm hati..tak sabar nk rase all those -ve temperatures. The immigration was easy, the lady officer just asked me few simple questions about what im going to study, for how long and she said, thank you bye. Unlike what most people had been said, how fussy they can be, mine was easy..perhaps due to how small the airport is, Newcastle International Airport. Its still international thou :D Owh, I actually met a friendly Malaysia, George, an MD working for the local hospital and he was nice. We met when we were int he line for the immi. So i grabbed my 30kilos luggage contained lots of herbs and spices, and a rice cooker :D and headed outside. I had a little panic coz i was looking for my documentation that states where my accommodation address is. And a beautiful local came, " are you occay???" with a very deep accent. Yeah, i am fine thank you and i found my letters. Har3 :D Asked her how could i actually buy a starter pack for phone line and they dont have it at the airport. Bummer. She suggested few shops that i may try for. And she showed me a public phone. OMG, dh berkurun kowt tak pakai public phone. Har3 :D So i went to the pay phone and realized i needed coin. Promptly i stepped into the shop next to it and asked wheter i can have a change. Unfortunately i had to get something and the balance in coins. So i did, a simple and cheap bar of chocolate. Made my way to use the phone and rang the accommodation office. Went outside and there you go, sejuk! So i took a cab that cost me 17pounds. The uni guide said around 15. Fair enough. And when i arrived, there were two large security in their striking fluorescent jacket waiting by the door. They were there for me! How wonderful. A good thing that i made the call earlier. So the lady security helped me getting in my house. It was big! And her name was Cristy. Lovely name for a well tough lady. Har3. So let me share some pics of my room ;)

 And i have to sleep for both beds :D

After settling in, i just couldnt wait any longer to go outside and get the starter pack for my phone. Went to the lobby and saw a Bangladeshi boy named Sajol. Friendly. He showed me the route to the city. and i was wearing only my inner warmer. Dang!!! it was damn cold. He told me to go to the post office to get one but they actually dont provide them. The lady cashier gave a help to find the stores anyways. She was very helpful as she went outside of the post office to give me direction which i found to be, takyah la beriya kan..u can just tell me the direction. Rupanye, they are like that here. How nice. If you ask for direction, they might lead you there or really2 will try to help you out. Sweet! So i went to O2 and got my number and BIS activated. Contacted my family. Relieved! ;)

I was supposed to talk about snow. So cutting on my registration day. Nothing much actuallym just a cute tall blondie helped me to get me a student ID which my picture turned out to be yellowish, but whatever, she was pretty and nice. Thats all that matters :D So after i got my card, I am officially a Newcastle University Student. Horeyyy! ;)

I entered Cassie building to register for my Post Grad Study and met Jullie, she contacted my main sv, Dr. Mo. Cool nickname ;) And i had to meet him. Was pretty nervous but he as welcoming. A warm one. Her3. He walked me to my office which i found so accommodating and i hardly think one will get that in Msia. But yes, he was nice. I happened to be so nervous that i didnt get to answer all his questions and he advised that i should relax and settle down and see him when im ready. 

To talk about snow finally, on the way to meet my sv actually, the snow came down, or felt. Whatever, stuff like that eyh! The small snowflakes felt onto my jacket and i was overjoyed. Seriously, at that moment, i really wish i can tell someone how happy i was or better, to be the all the loved ones to feel the beauty moment. I was emotional..for few secs. Happy. Sgt2..up till now..kalaw snow turun..sejuk je rase..dughhh :D SO that was my snow moment. Jakun jumpe snow tp lantak was my moment. And the people here, semua tak sabar nk tgu winter abes. Biaselah, kte dh biasa panas, suke sejuk. Dyorg dh biasa sejuk, keluar je matahari, bertenggek semua kat luar cam burung merpati putih. Har3 :D So here i share some of the snow picture. Couldnt really get the ones because i was alone the frst few days. Malu nak suh org amikkan gmbr kan..gittew :D *nak ckp pasal snow je, tulis berjela :D